So every now and then I look back at life, friends who have gone, things I have experianced, and sort of torture myself with what could have happened, what I could have done, said, to change the out come.
I look back with fondness on somethings and torment with others. And it makes me wonder, Do I hold on to these things just to keep from being really happy?
Don't get me wrong, i have things in this day and age that are enough to burden a soul, so why would I voluntarily add to it by rehashing things from the past.
At what point do memories only become memories and not lessons? How do we take hurtful, although important lessons, and turn them into "just memories"?
Let me know what you think!!
Wow. What a great thought. Reminds me of a post I did a while ago about how life should have no 'mistakes', only 'lessons'. Boy, do I ever need to remind myself of that these days.
ReplyDeleteHolding on to things for the sake of keeping us from being happy.... great thought. Thanks for this Kristi, very thought provoking!
You're Welcome Nicole! Hope all is ok with you!
ReplyDeleteI guess, for me, I had to realize that while I felt I had made HUGE mistakes, they were all turning points in my life that led me to where I am now. I believe I am a stronger, wiser woman who has a beautiful little boy. I wouldn't change it, and so I can only be grateful for the fact that all of those mistakes are "behind me" and have carved me into the kind of person I am right now. Of course we have moments of regret and pain, but as long as we live the majority of our lives realizing that those bumps in the road are miles back, then I think we are doing ok. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is thought provoking Kristi!
ReplyDeleteI don't really know what to say, I think you're ahead of me just figuring this out.
I think one thing is to do something that helps reconcile whatever it is. I know that's not specific but I think even being openly, audibly honest about how you feel about it (even just in the bathroom mirror or your own journal) can help us be okay with whatever it was and let it soften and fade into just a memory.
I made Chris a photo book of our first five years for our anniversary and looking back, choosing all of the good parts of our life made me feel better about the bad parts too. Now when I think of that first poor, lonely, dark winter, alone and inexperienced with a new baby and no friends I don't feel awful. I just see a cocoon of innocence and nieveity.
Love the music btw!
Thanks ladies for your comments!
ReplyDeleteI have my moments where life is great and then every now and then everything just seems to pile up and burden me even more. So now its time to try some new methods and see how it goes!